Ah, the curse of a British Bank Holiday weekend. Being at home with my darling lovely hubby for three whole days was absolutely wonderful and I only wish I could do more of it... but being out of my usual routine means that things can easily slip a bit. So slip they did.
No, it wasn't all bad and the eating was actually pretty sensible, with generally decent choices and portions (well, mostly... if you discount that cheese). But it wasn't all that great either, as... [embarrassed squirm]... aside from some walking, housework and a huge heap of ironing the size of a blue whale to plough through, the weekend's quota of exercise was nowhere near what I'd planned or hoped.
All of this means that, overall, the scales are holding steady at pretty much where I was last week. That's sitting on or near the 60kg mark, having jiggled around the line for some time.
OK, so I haven't gone up. Yippee! Definitely cause to feel pleased. But the status quo also flags up the fact that I've missed a golden opportunity. A chance to get that marker moving down below the figure I've been seeing, off and on, for what seems like quite a looooong time. And that missed opportunity means that I'm not one step closer to actually wearing those teensy-tiny pale blue Levi jeans hanging mockingly in my wardrobe.
Feels really quite ironic that, over the weekend, I had to dispose of a lovely long denim skirt which had apparently grown a bit since I last wanted to wear it in early spring. Now too big in the waist it hung from my hips and dragged on the floor (tall I'm not!). Woah, when did that happen? Dammit, but I liked that skirt! Ho hum, back it went to the charity shop from whence it came.
Ooooh, now wait a minute - I don't suppose that maybe, possibly, those jeans might have...? Nah, no such luck!
OK, I can hear someone think, you aren't losing but surely you are fine where you are? Er, that's actually a pretty good question.
It's time I set aside some quiet 'me' time for reflection, took stock and really looked hard at where I am and whether I'm happy to stay here. Maintenance is all very well... if it's where I've decided I want to be. But, right at this moment, I'm not sure I've truly made the decision to maintain rather than continue to shift more flab... for all I seem to be doing it.
Yes, I'm a lot less fat than I've been in years. Yes, I'm fitter and healthier than I used to be. Yes, I can wear 'girly' things without cringing (usually). Yes, that all makes me pretty happy. But I still could be fitter than I am now (er, probably rather a lot fitter to be blunt) and I could be considerably more toned. My belly could definitely stand to lose some more of the flabby filling in that flappy, leftover 'apron' thingy, even if the apron never goes away.
If I'm absolutely honest I think I've been resting on my laurels for quite some time... and I'm not convinced that those prickly leaves are all that comfortable a bed (have you seen those pointy tips?). C'mon fat lass, don't just bimble and drift along but decide what you really do want and make a plan.
01 September 2010
Steady as she goes?
Posted by Deniz at 16:45
Labels: goals, motivation
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2 comments:
I think maintaining over holiday is somewhat a success :)
Given that I am still a fat woman struggling in the mire of fatness, I am probably not the best person to comment:) I have not been in the situation you are in now..maintenance.
All I can say is - well done for not over-eating and allowing your weight to creep back up. That in itself is an incredible achievement. Finding the determination to not regain weight is also another string to your bow. Wanting to make adjustments also sounds promising. You are now a slim woman. I wonder if I'd rest on my laurels once I hit my target weight?
You can't though, can you? You have worked SO hard for a long time to get to the weight you are now. There is still some tightening up to do (you feel) so draw on all that determination you used to get your weight down and draw up a plan. What do you want to achieve, and how are you going to achieve it? I have no doubts that you'll sort out the niggling problems you have with your body. This is the final furlong for you.
What I'd like you to do now is to remember to parcel up that determination, strength and commitment when you have finished with it, and send it to me please. (You don't need it as much as I do!)
Oh if only I could follow the advice I give to others :)
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