So where am I right now? Well, a school report would probably say something like 'acceptable, but could do better' (actually, as a kid mine used to say things like 'could try harder' quite a lot).
My weight remains pretty stable, floating between 54kg and 55kg so that's OK. Mind you, it does seem a bit of a struggle to keep it in this range at times. If I'm honest, I'd prefer to be sitting in the 53-54kg range, but I don't quite seem able to hang onto this at the moment, even when I do get there. I think the fitness part feeds into this...
Fitness has taken a decided turn for the not so good - I'm not the woman I was. Hmmm, nor the one I want to be. The lack shows a bit too much for my liking, and my shape is oh so definitely not what I'd prefer to see. The waist size I'd expect at my current weight is not, repeat not, what I actually see. In fact, it seems to be a half- to one whole inch larger than it 'ought' to be, and that increase is a flabby one. Now I'll admit that I never have a flat tummy (my perennial leftover kangaroo pouch sees to that!), but I appear to have a new and unwelcome squidgy bit just above the waistband of my jeans - pooh!
(in some ways this makes me giggle, when I think back to the bad old days when the very thought of wearing jeans seemed an impossible dream)
I need to get back to my daily stints on Connie the rower (sorry babe, I've missed you). I need to get back to the abs work too. I plan to do both... but life seems to have ganged up on me to foil my feeble efforts. The course didn't help (oooh, but it's been one hectic month and I'd quite forgotten the stress of exams!) and now the run up to the festive season has set a nice series of obstacles for me too.
Still, I used to be able to figure a pathway through stuff like this... so why can't I do this now? Grrr!
OK, I'll take what positives I can from this - I'm 'alright'. But I want to be better, and I know that it's do-able. Guess I need to, as Nike so often tell us, just do it!
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Life can often 'pile up on us' sometimes. I'm sorry you are going through a rough patch. Perhaps, it might help to go back and read blog posts or journal entries from the time you remember things being so good.
It might spur some memories to help you navigate through this time. Or it might make you realize that things were a bit of a struggle then as well.
Good luck,
Lori
The holidays can be a busy time, and a time of food temptations everywhere. Making a priority of a small amount of time for yourself and Connie can help relieve some stress and get things going in the right direction. Even if it's just a 15 minute quickie :)
Even though the last thing I feel like is exercise these days (the sofa is much more welcoming than the elipitcal machine), I just bite the bullet and commit for 15 minutes. Once working out, the endorphins kick in and I figure I can do another 15.
If you don't post again in the next while, Happy Christmas to you Deniz :)
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